Give it a try or keep trying.
Give yourself the benefit of your meditative / neutral mind.
The Totem is all about family. It is our connection with the past. It is the karma we bring into this life. It is about genetic influences. Yesterday, I heard that we are all 99.9% the same. That's pretty close to saying we are all one. Genetic connection is being studied world wide.
Often, Totem is about karma and Spiritual Family
Can you invoke the cosmic power of the Moon and Divine Mother, as both are of the Divine Feminine? Crabs are water creatures and are sensitive.
You are loved and blessed.