In some cultures, taking the sacred mushroom raises their consciousness. We all know that raising our consciousness is not as easy as it is talking about it. It takes discipline, practice, meditation, right living, etc. It's not easy, but it can be done with effort.
Sometimes having another like minded person to work with you is very helpful. Group work can build energy to assist us in raising our vibration and level of consciousness. Where is your group or mentor? A new teacher may be coming to you.
Keep in mind that there is a karmic plan or pattern over which you have no control. Put your trust in God and hear the message of His will for you.
The Self tells us to look at the big picture. Getting perspective is very helpful when we are in a fear or panic mode.
You are loved and blessed.