You have power and great strength to use. One can use the power in fear or not. Your choice.
The red page - the spying page is observing. Often when you are really observing, you are in the present moment. You can listen and broadly focus.
From the place of the observer, options and alternatives become obvious. One doesn't have to react, one can chose and act with clear mind.
It is a challenge to stay in the present moment, but you can do it.